The past doesn't exist anymore.

The future doesn't exist yet.

Squish your thumb and index finger together- the present is smaller than that space.

It's barely exists.

I try to think about the present, but then a second passes and I'm in a new present.

And then that's gone in a blink of an eye.

The past and future don't exist.

The present is so minute it almost doesn't exist either.

Do we exist?



What is beauty and what does beautiful even mean? The perfect eyes, nose and face? What is the perfect face? I don't know. I don't think anyone really knows.

Today in church a lady bore her testimony and explained that God created us each perfectly. We shouldn't hate our looks because every one of us is beautiful and a sacred creation of Heavenly Fathers. I believe this one hundred percent. Yet, no one looks the same so how can we each be perfect?

I think that maybe Heavenly Father made our appearance perfect for somebody else. Maybe, just maybe, we look like we do because we will be attractive to the person we are supposed to marry. Maybe our looks are designed to attract that person that we are supposed to be with.

Hmm... I'm not sure but I would like to think that's true.

Hogwarts

Merry Christmas

I'm already sad that Christmas is over. This Christmas season I wasn't excited or anxious like I usually am, so I was pleasantly surprised by what a great holiday it was. I feel like low expectations always have the best results.

I had such an amazing time being with my family. Now that I don't live with them it's actually kind of fun when we get together haha. I got a lot of great presents! Flowerbomb perfume, an ipod dock, a movie, boots, a blanket, etc. All of my presents were surprises this year which was really fun, and I completely love everything I got! 

One of my favorite presents was a nice surprise email from Josh! It was really good to hear from him on Christmas because I was missing him so much. He sent me a package a couple days before full of food from the MTC: cookies, hot chocolate mix, candy canes, candy bars, etc. I absolutely loved it! Also, at the Warner Christmas party we got to talk to my two cousins who are on missions. We got to talk to my cousin Josh on the phone and we skyped with my cousin Taylor! It was really exciting! I was sad though that because Josh (not my cousin) is at the MTC he couldn't call or skype home. I had no need to worry though because today I received the best surprise ever... a phone call from Joshua!! He was flying to Lubbock and called me from the Dallas airport. I wasn't expecting it at all. Just hearing his voice made me cry. We only had three minutes to talk but it was just perfect.

With all of these missionaries in my life and their influence this Christmas I have been closer to the true meaning of the holiday than ever before. I am so grateful for the gospel in my life. It truly brings me so much happiness. I don't know what I would do without it. Every year hearing about the birth of Jesus give me chills.

Luke 1:1-14
And it came to pass in those days, that there went out a decree from Caesar Augustus, that all the world should be taxed...And Joseph also went up from Galilee, out of the city of Nazareth, into Judea, unto the city David, which is called Bethlehem... to be taxed with Mary his espoused wife, being great with child. And so it was, that, while they were there, the days were accomplished that she should be delivered. And she brought forth her firstborn son, and wrapped him in swaddling clothes, and laid him in a manger; because there was no room for them in the inn. And there were in the same country shepherds abiding in the field, keeping watch over their flock by night. And lo, the angel of the Lord came upon them, and the glory of the Lord shone round about them: and they were sore afraid. And the angel said unto them, Fear not: for behold, I bring you good tidings of great joy, which shall be to all people. For unto you is born this day in the city of David a Saviour, which is Christ the Lord. And this shall be a sign unto you; Ye shall find the babe wrapped in swaddling clothes, lying in a manger. And suddenly there was with the angel a multitude of the heavenly host praising God, and saying, Glory to God in the highest, and on earth peace, good will toward men...

My favorite part of the Walker Christmas Eve party is acting out the nativity. We finish it off by singing Silent Night. You feel the spirit so strong and know that it's true.

Christmas truly is magical.

My dad took us kids to Disneyland this past weekend. It was so much fun! Disneyland at Christmas time is amazing. It's decorated so cute, some rides are festive, and the shows are all done to Christmas music. I loved it.

I came home and headed straight over to my apartment to check the mail... THREE letters from Josh! I couldn't be happier:) 

yum

One day I hope to be able to make the perfect cupcake.

lovelys

everyone deserves love

flying

This morning Hay, Kels, and I got to go on a hot air balloon ride.
It was incredible:)

happily ever after

I have my whole life planned out for me. Move out, go to UVU, become a dental hygienist, get married, have a family, live happily ever after. Blah blah blah. Sometimes that life sounds like a great one and I can't wait for it to come. Recently though I have been taking a second look at "my future". Don't get me wrong, it would be a great life, but where is the excitement?

It feels wrong to have your life planned out. Life will never turn out exactly how you want it to. So why dream up your perfect future and be disappointed when it isn't the fairytale you imagined it to be? Everyone has a tough life in some way or another. "No one said it would be easy, they only said it would be worth it". Cliche, but true. I say, live your life. Do what makes you happy. The perfect life will find you. As it says in Dan in Real Life: "instead of telling our young people to plan ahead, we should tell them to plan to be surprised".

All of this aside, I do plan on a happily ever after.

summer lovin'

bucket list

"a list of things you want to do before you die"

"a list you make with friends of things you always say you're going to do but don't"

I want a bucket list. I know it is cliche and majorly overdone yet I want one.

But, do I want a...

summer bucket list?

or a

life long bucket list?

I am thinking a summer one. My summer has been so much fun so far but it needs to be spiced up a bit. 

This list needs to be possible to complete but not too simple. I want to be challenged but not overwhelmed.





i will reveal this list soon. whenever it is complete... although if it is a list of any significance it will never truly be complete.

i

love 

summer

happiness

day eight: something that makes you happy

thunderstorms
the smell of rain
waking up to a cute text
no school or work
taking a bath
chirstmas
birthdays (mine is on friday!)
food
compliments
the ocean
cute animals
making new friends
holidays
summer
sunshine
wind
sleeping
sitting by the fireplace on a cold day
people smiling at you
being loved
surprises
feeling the spirit
music and dancing
being with friends
being hyper
singing really loud when i'm by myself
going on a vacation
receiving flowers
holding a baby
feeling confident
being with someone you love
laughing

the boy who lived

day six: your favorite book

Need I say more?

I LOVE Harry Potter.

I have read every book up to ten times.

When I finished the seventh book I cried.

I'm heart broken that they are over.

If I had any one wish it would be to go to Hogwarts.

I've had dreams about it.
I want a wand.
I want to fly.

My favorite characters are probably Fred and George.
They are hilarious.
I cried when Fred died. He was my favorite of the twins.

I love....
Harry
Hermione
Ron
Ginny
Dumbledore
Sirius
Hedwig
Mad Eye
Kreacher
Dobby
Fred
George
Lupin
Tonks
Mrs. Weasly
Fluer
Neville
Luna
Etc...
I love them all.

But my favorite character by far is Snape.
I just can't comprehend how amazing he is.
I sometimes open the seventh book to the chapter where Harry sees all of Snape's memories in the pensieve. It makes me cry every time.
Poor Professor Snape.

Harry Potter is just incredible.
I will never stop loving it.
Long live Harry Potter.