So so pretty.

Do you ever miss someone so much it hurts?

I always wanted a twin.

My dad took us kids to Disneyland this past weekend. It was so much fun! Disneyland at Christmas time is amazing. It's decorated so cute, some rides are festive, and the shows are all done to Christmas music. I loved it.

I came home and headed straight over to my apartment to check the mail... THREE letters from Josh! I couldn't be happier:) 

this love of ours is terrible news

If I had the choice of possessing any one talent in the world I think I would choose to be musically gifted. I would love to be able to write music, play it, and sing it.

I have attempted multiple times to write a song on the guitar. Every time I fail miserably. I guess music just isn't my forte.







I have to settle with simply enjoying the musical talent of others.

i find it kind of sad

smiling faces i can see

but not for me

i sit and watch as tears go by

there's a bear inside your stomach

the cub's been kicking you for weeks

and if this isn't all a dream

well then we'll cut him from beneath

singing, this will be the day that i die

this will be the day that i die

and if you come when all the flowers are dying

and i am dead, as dead i well may be

you'll come and find the place where i am lying

and kneel and say an ave there for me

it's not a cry you can hear at night

it's not somebody who's seen the light

it's a cold and it's a broken hallelujah

what have a become, my sweetest friend

everyone i know goes away in the end

and you could have it all

my empire of dirt

i will let you down

i will make you hurt

will you say to me when i'm gone

your face has faded but lingers on

cause light strikes a deal with each coming night

cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable

and life's like an hourglass glued to the table

no one can find the rewind button, girl

so cradle your head in your hands




 where are we
what the hell is going on
the dust has only just begun to form




hold my head inside your hands
i need someone who understands
i need someone, someone who hears
for you i've waited all these years




if i die young, bury me in satin
lay me down on a bed of roses
sink me in the river at dawn
send me away with the words of a love song



and i find it kind of funny

i find it kind of sad

the dreams in which i'm dying

are the best i've ever had




sad music. 
i love being able to feel the emotion conveyed through a song. 
i enjoy being sad over a sorrow that isn't my own. 
to forget my worries by focusing on some else's