nostalgic

Along with the excitement of being eighteen and graduating from High School comes some nostalgia for the old days.

i miss...

playing at the park for ages and crying when it was time to go home

sleeping on the tramp

kickball

night games

playing house

birthday parties

saturday morning cartoons

happy meals

asking my parents permission before i could eat anything

having a bunkbed

playing dress-up

dancing

gymnastics

loosing teeth

being lifted up in a blanket and swung around

riding bikes

being pushed on a swing

recess

playing with dolls

taking a bath everyday

my mom doing my hair

being so proud of playing "peter peter pumpkin eater" on the piano

putting on talent shows for my family

playing school and being the teacher with my cousins

laughing when adults did although i had no idea what was so funny

pretending to be sick 

being sung to sleep

pizza being my favorite food in the world

disney movies

having "late nights" with my friends

monkey bars

make believe

being young

i miss this:

oh to be young again.

i quit

this whole 30 day challenge thing was too much for me. i give up.

it's summer time!! 

i still can't believe it.

i'm not even excited yet because it hasn't hit me.

but when it does i'm going to be so happy.

i am a Timpview High School graduate.

pretty sweet. i know.

i'm an 18 year old high school graduate.

i'm not ready for this.

in the words of taylor swift:

"oh i don't want to grow up, wish i never grew up
i could still be little
oh i don't want to grow up, wish i never grew up
it could still be simple"


that song makes me cry
 

never grow up

day sixteen: a picture from two years ago

I feel like I don't look any different in this picture from two years ago then I do now. But when I compare this picture to one taken of me recently I can see how much I have changed.

I was a sophomore then and now I am a high school graduate (as of yesterday).


I'm not ready to be all grown up.

mmmm...

day fifteen: something you crave

I work at Jamba Juice. I am madly in love with the Peanut Butter Mood smoothie. It's the best. Ever. I want to get it for my shift meal everytime I work. I love it so much.

That is what I crave.

love

day fourteen: first love


My first love. My best friend. Joshua.


I have never been closer to anyone. Ever since I first saw Josh I thought he was so attractive. When we first got together I knew I was so lucky to have him. Its been a year and eight months since then. Wow. Joshua is the funniest person I know. No one thinks he is funnier than he does. He is his own biggest fan. I love it. Give him anything with sugar in it and he gets soo hyper. I love that we are so immature together. But, we can also be really serious. My family honestly loves Josh more than me. He is Mitchell's favorite person in the world. Josh is really the most amazing person I know. He is so talented at pretty much everything. He is so good at fixing cars. He is such a hard worker. When he starts working he gets so serious and will hardly talk to me until the job is done. He cooks well. He is so good with little kids. He has a great singing voice. He is an incredible basketball player. I could go on for days. He is turning his mission papers in on Wednesday. I know he will the best missionary. I love that I can go anywhere in Provo or nearby and I'd have tons of memories of me and Josh there. I swear we have done everything together. I am going to miss him so much on his mission. I'll probably write to him everyday. I love everything about him. He is my dream boy. I love you Joshua.













as tears go by

day thirteen: something that makes you cry

way to many things make me cry. it's kind of ridiculous.

elderly people make me cry. when i see an older person shopping or something and they are obviously struggling to even walk it makes me so sad. i feel so bad for them and i worry that they are lonely. i think lonliness is one of the worst feelings a person can feel.

it also makes me cry when i go out to eat and i see someone eating by themself. i don't know why but it really is the saddest thing. sometimes even when i am home alone and eating by myself i feel so sad for myself i want to cry.

food

day twelve: your favorite place to eat

i love food. i love going to eat pretty much every where.

i'll make a list of some of my favorite places.

taco bell

panda express

cafe rio

macaroni grill

cheesecake factory

mama chus

gurus

mi ranchito

that's obviously not all but i'm not really in the mood to think of the rest. so there ya go!

vactions

day eleven: your favorite place to travel

my family isn't really big on traveling. i wish we were because i love it but we have only been out of the country once. in 5th grade my family went to cancun, mexico. it was my favorite vacation ever. all inclusive amazingness. it is beautiful there.

one day i hope to be able to see the world.

waking up is the hardest part

day ten: a recent dream you had


i have some pretty crazy dreams sometimes. i always wonder how my mind can possibly come up with the dreams that i have. and why i am thinking of those things in the first place...

last night i had a dream that i was hanging out with blaire from gossip girl. she was being really mean to all of the girls there and i was trying to stick up for them. the girls house we were at was rue from hunger games. i told her mom how mean blaire was and to not let rue hang out with her.

a couple weeks ago i dreamt that voldemort was trying to kill me. there was no magic involved at all though. we finally caught voldemort and tied him up in my car and went to some festival but when we got back to the car he had got away. i was so scared that he was going to kill me and was hiding from him when i woke up.

my dreams are never satisfying. i either have nightmares and wake up relieved or have amazing dreams and wake up disappointed.